Advocare Day 4

Yeah, I skipped a day, but I don't think you want a play by play of every minute of my life. I swear I am not that exciting :)

Yesterday was a pretty normal day. I had my delicious meal replacement shake and a spark mixed with fiber drink (to get rid of the awful taste/texture issue) and I was off to work. Snacks yesterday were bananas and a nut mix, but the tough part was lunch. I had a lunch date with a coworker. This was the first time on the cleanse that I was going to be tested by food. I sadly had to tell my coworker that we could not get Thai food (my favorite!) and we settled on Ruby Tuesdays for their soup and salad bar. I walked through the salad forcing myself to skip all the cheese and yummy pasta salads. I threw one crouton on my plate to satisfy my craving for bread and almost cried when the waiter placed three cheesy biscuits down next to me. They smelled amazing! But I pushed them away and dug into my salad. Within a few moments, my soup arrived, Chicken Tortilla. The bowl was SURROUNDED by tortilla chips. I quickly grabbed them and put them on a spare plate. I needed all temptations to be as far away from me as possible! At the end, I was happy that I made it through.

Back at work, I had a personal trainer session scheduled with my friend at the gym we have on site. This was my first training session on dry land since I had my foot surgery. I was worried about how badly my foot would swell up with all of the moving I was going to do, but I was ready to get my butt kicked. I love these workout sessions because I do them with one of my favorite people and our trainer is great. We spend the entire time gossiping with each other while dripping with sweat.

While my lunch and workout was great, in general, my workday was anything but. I had some huge escalation issues at work. People were just off their game and it left me tired and cranky. I got home and just wanted to curl up in my hammock and nap drink a bottle of wine. In lieu of that, I just stayed cranky. I felt awful, because my poor husband has to take the brunt of my emotions which are typically all over the place. So, in addition to being, tired and stressed, I felt guilty that I couldn't communicate to John why I felt this way and he had to deal with me. I went to bed early hoping that a good nights sleep would make me feel better.

The sleep helped a little, but what helped more was getting on the scale and seeing that I was down 10lbs. While that is a lot of weight, I remind myself that losing 10lbs when you are attempting to lose 100lbs total is much easier than losing 10lbs when your goal is only to lose 15. When you are really heavy, the first pounds seem to melt away with relative ease. While I know this, I still refuse to dismiss the fact that I lost 10lbs.  It's still a huge accomplishment.

Today is Friday and while the day itself is going better, I am really worried about tonight. John and I are going to see the new X-Men movie with some of our friends and I LOVE movie theatre popcorn. I can live without the soda or candy, but I will go to a movie just to get popcorn. I will be bringing some almonds and water with me to help quell my cravings.

Even worse is that this weekend is Memorial Day weekend. There will be a ton of opportunities to eat great barbecue and drink delicious, cold, refreshing beers. To help, I have signed up to work my second job, a lot. Working all day Saturday and Monday should help keep temptation away. Also, I ordered a new swimsuit for my upcoming vacation to Puerto Rico. The thought of being possibly 20lbs lighter by then and rocking that new suit should make it easier to grab a bottle of water instead of a bottle of beer.